Life is Good

I definitely don't get on this site enough.  This is especially clear when I look over my blog postings.  Shameful.

So, I made the resolution this year (and I usually don't make resolutions) that I would just be happy with my life as it is.  This has to do with so many things, but one of them is being single.  I have decided to be ok with being single.  And you know, since I made that decision, I have been just fine being single.  In fact, happier than I've been in a long time.  I have a full life.  I have a job I actually like and feel like I'm good at.  I am going to graduate school and doing pretty well at it.  All A's so far...  My kids are turning out to be creative, well-balanced people who care about the world and the people around them.  I get out and have fun most weekends - like going out to listen to local bands.  I've taken up playing pool of all things, although I'm not particularly good at it so far.  I have fun with it anyhow.  I love taking my camera out and shooting pics of things I see every day, but maybe up close or at an angle I had never considered before.

I don't think it really gets much better than this.  I'm in no hurry to change anything.  
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    contemplative contemplative

Survived!

I survived this second term I was so anxious about.  And now I can breathe for a week or two until the next term starts.  It'll be crazy too.... two classes over the course of two weeks.  Ye Gads!

Hey, why didn't somebody tell me weight loss would be so much more difficult after the age of 44?  Hm?  What's that all about????

To Inanar who keeps wanting to friend me....I don't know who you are.  When I check out your page, I see nothing except "Elisa at Work" and a cute little bunny. 

Fran
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Too much going on

I think I have too much on my plate.  On top of the rigorous graduate school deal, I am trying to lose weight - and keep track of my calories and exercise.  And job hunt.  I think I just need to make the diet and exercise a routine so that I don't have to keep track of it.  I don't have the time.  I'm already sick of spending so much time sitting in front of the computer.

Alright then.
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    contemplative contemplative

Serious Anxiety Attacki

It's my second term at grad school.  Most of the time I'm pretty confident about my abilities.  There is something about the start of the term, though.  I find myself going through a bit of a panic, wondering if I really belong here - am I doing the right thing?  Is this the right move for me or am I just throwing my money away???  It was to the point today where my chest was tight, and I couldn't breathe deeply.  I think it has something to do with the level of work required this term.  Good Lord.  It's extremely rigorous!  And they want me to do things like write up my philosophy of education.  I have no idea what to write.  I know if I can get focused, I can come up with something.  I think one of the main problems is that I expect myself to come up with something spectacular.  No pressure from me there.....

And then I remembered the phenomen Andy Job discussed in the first night of ELP 521.  Returning adults frequently go through an "invisible imposter" phase upon return.  Ok, it's been delayed by about a term, but here I am, doing just that.  The sense that I don't belong and can't possibly do this.  Then I was ok. 

What a day.
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    relieved relieved

Has it really been two years?

I can't believe it's been almost two years since I last posted here.  My goodness. 

So, here's the deal, we've moved twice.  (Oh My GOD.) and have landed in a different apartment complex in which we might or might not stay as it is slightly on the mustly and damp side.  I am not working, but am instead attending graduate school in (ta da) education ...the field to which I swore I would never return.  Yet, here I am.  It keeps pulling at me, oddly.  Life seems to go more smoothly when I am heading in the right direction, and this seems to be the right direction.

There you have it. 
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    complacent complacent

Population

I've finally been hearing rumblings here and there in the media - people FINALLY addressing population as an environmental concern.  If you think about it, if the population were more limited, there would not be the environmental concerns we have today.  I know that's sacreligious to some of you out there, but really, what's so special about us that we have to reproduce like yeast?

Shoot Your Television Pt. 3

I've been noticing something about my children lately.

The dinner table is much more peaceful. 

For the first time in their lives, my children aren't sitting down at the table and quoting lines from television shows. 

And they aren't bickering.

We're having the proverbial conversations about how our days went. 

Scary.

I think I'll get rid of the cable more often.

pining to meet other writers

did I mention I had been pining to meet other writers?  My former poetry writing group is reforming!  We will meet for the first time next Sunday.  I'm so jazzed to be getting back to it!!!!
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    bouncy bouncy

more on the CL strictly platonic

Well, it took a week, but I am now getting responses from women.  (Yeah!)  Other women who aren't looking for sex in all the wrong places.  (whew.)  I think I may just be able to locate a few good walkers.

Otherwise, it seems to be either sex maniacs, old out of shape men, and of course, my potential fishing buddy, whom I have no complaints about whatsoever.  In fact, I am beginning to really look forward to some time in the outdoors, and learning to fly fish.  Being the geek that I am, I have been reading up on the subject.  It's amazing what's out there for potential women fisherpersons! 

I will take my sketch pad, a journal, and my camera just in case the fishing is slow.  Yes, it's true, I have ADD, and if there is no action, I can get pretty darned bored pretty darned quick.  This is assuming I cannot see the fish, cannot use the rod (I tried it once a good 20 years ago, and didn't get the line caught in anything, so I think it will go ok.)  When I learned before, I'm not sure anyone told me , really, how to go about it.  As far as I could tell, I was just beating the water with a fly on the end of a string.  My friend explained to me, though, that there is a method to the madness, and that you actually do need to spot fish and aim for where they are feeding.  I could feel the lightbulb coming on.  Maybe I can do this after all. 

I know if nothing else, my companion will be funny, entertaining, and intelligent, won't get drunk while we're out there (he doesn't drink) , isn't a nudist (no offense to the nudists who may be reading this) and seems to know what he's doing.  And even if the fishing isn't so good, I will enjoy being outdoors away from the concrete. 

And that's really what it's all about.  Unless my bumper sticker is correct, and the Hokey Pokey is what it's all about.  Hm.  Food for thought.

Adventures on Craigslist

I must have posted it in the wrong section or something.  That's the only thing I can figure happened.

This weekend, everyone I knew, and I do mean everyone, was out of town.  I really wanted to go hiking, and didn't want to go alone.  I thought it would be a great opportunity to perhaps meet some new people.  So, I placed and ad on Craigslist under "Strictly Platonic."

park exploration anyone? - w4m - 42


Sounds harmless enough, at least that's what I thought.  I posted it also under the w4W section as well.  I didn't know how to post it for both at the same time.  Maybe I'm not computer savvy enough.

No women responded.  Not one.

Men, now that's another story.  Apparently some of them felt that "hike' was a metaphor for "sex."  Of course, a male friend has informed me that on CL, just about anything can be a metaphor for sex, so there you have it. 

Instead of getting out and hiking a bunch this weekend, I ended up culling emails that were blatantly sexual in nature, and then further sorting what was left.  And then, I spent way too much time on email corresponding with potential hiking partners.  I met two for coffee, one really nice and may end up teaching me to fish as well on one of our hikes.  That might be ok.  But......otherwise, it felt like I was cruising for potential dates. 

Really, is there something in that ad that screams "I'm looking for sex" or "I'm looking for a life partner?"   Maybe I'm naive, but I just don't see it. 

By Monday, I was so sick of my computer and messing with this whole thing, that I took myself to Tryon Creek State Park, and took myself for a very enjoyable short hike.  It was lovely.  Birds were singing, and there was just enough foot traffic (families mostly) that I felt pretty safe all said and done. 

Good grief.  Maybe that's what I should have done in the first place.  At least I get to learn how to fly fish.